I Will Sing

If I had not known

The piercing of love’s sword

In lifting up cries 

For a brother 

Whose silenced cries 

Entered my heart

I would not know 

The faithfulness of a Savior 

Who saw, knew 

And carried our broken hearts

More than twenty years long

Nor the power of a God

Who heals, restores

And makes whole 

A family 

In Him woven One.

If I had not known 

The horrors of cancer

Stealing strength and life

From my Mum

Day in and day out

I would never have tasted

The peace 

That passes all understanding 

Nor the love 

That conquers all.

If I did not know

What it is to be held 

When all I have wanted 

Is to die 

I would not know 

The power of God

Perfected in trauma 

His fellowship of suffering 

And what it is

To be embraced 

By so many 

Near and far 

Who know 

That to live is Christ 

And to die is gain.

If I had not known 

Rejection’s repeated sting

I would never have had 

My eyes opened

By faith to see Jesus 

Outside the camp 

Calling me, a sinner,

To sit and break bread

With Him.

If I had not known

My pride 

And worldly standing 

Stripped 

I would not now know 

The treasure of heaven 

In my family’s eyes

Nor the gift 

Of the alabaster box broken

Of prayers upon prayers

Rising 

As incense sweet.

If I had not known 

The lies upon me hailing

In my God’s own House  

I would not know

The One who tethers our feet 

To the ground

Who pours His breath 

Into our lungs

And who perfects 

His Body, our bodies,

In our weakness

As sin is brought into the light

For compassion to flow

And grace to unfurl 

In Spirit fruit and leaves

In Christ revealing Himself in me

If I had not known suffering

I wouldn’t be tasting

The width and depth and breadth 

Of love now

I wouldn’t know my Savior 

And His Cross 

To always and ever be

Enough.

So, today

I will lift my voice 

And sing!

Today, 

I will lift my hands

In praise!

Even as my heart aches

My tears fall

And my flesh and heart fail me

Again and again 

I will give thanks!

I will shout in praise

Of the One

Who remains 

The strength of my heart

Of the One

Who overcomes

Every weapon formed against us

On His Cross 

Every curse

Has already broken

Undone.

Yes, today, I will praise Him 

In whom each and every Promise 

Is Yes and Amen!

Oh Father, thank You for our stories of healing that declare Your handiwork. Thank You for removing the embrace of worldly comfort from us as a children that we would know Your true comfort and love. Thank You that we may know Jesus and the power of His resurrection, and may share His sufferings, becoming like Him in His death, that by any means possible we may attain the resurrection from the dead. Thank You for turning that which was meant to harm us into good through the sacrifice of Your one and only Son for us.

Thank You for helping us through the trauma we have walked through to look for You and recognize You in places and people we never would have otherwise looked for or seen You. Thank You for stripping away our idols to reveal that man does not live by bread alone but by every Word that departs from Your mouth. Thank You for showing us that every Promise You have spoken is already yes and Amen in Christ. 

Thank You for sending us out into the world to call Your family home: to commune with You in children that we, Your Body, have forsaken in the past. Forgive us, Father! Thank You for showing us that You have never ever repelled or forsaken even one of Your precious children. Thank You for the mercy You have repeatedly extended to us through these children, even as we have not recognized You in them and turned You away in our own blinded self-righteousness. 

Thank You for teaching us over and over to see and embrace the belonging You speak over us and all your beloved children through Your Word. Thank You for holding out Your love and belonging to us every single day of our life. Open our eyes to see and take a hold of Your extended hand today.

Thank You for Your mercy. Thank You for Your grace. Thank You for the humbling You have worked in us through suffering and continue to daily. Thank You for the gift of pain that draws us all deeper into who You truly are: our only way, truth and life.

Thank You for taking us where we would never go of our own accord. Open our eyes to see You in the families we have married into and in the communities You have set us. Thank You for using our daily celebration of who You are – our Rock, our fortress and our Redeemer in our weakness and need – to restore and heal Your broken Body.

Thank You that You are faithful from generation to generation. Thank You that Your love conquers death, that Your peace surpasses all understanding and that You have broken every curse holding us captive. 

Thank You that You are unveiling Your freedom in each one of us day by day. Thank You that You have planted us next to Your living streams to daily wash and cleanse us in Your living and breathing Word. Thank You that You are daily growing Your fruit for food and Your leaves for the healing of Your Body in and through us. Thank You that we will yet see the fulfillment of each and every single Promise You speak over us and the lives of those You intercede for through us. 

Thank You that You have not forsaken even one of Your beloved children and that You will continue to perfect Your power in our every weakness. Thank You that our trials do not define who we are, but are Your gift to us to draw us ever more deeply into who You are: strong and mighty in our weakness. Remind us and show us that You are so much greater than we could ever fathom. 

Today, we, Your Body, choose to lift up our sacrifice of praise in honor of who You are in each one of us: Your beloved, called, treasured and chosen children. Thank You for being SO strong in our weakness. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Featured image of bird song by Tom Bradley on Unsplash

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