The Alpha and Omega

Jesus has very specific instructions on where to go and where not. So, each place we are led to, even if it ends in a breaking, we can be sure, was always purposed by Him.

Jesus knew many Jews’ hearts would be hardened and yet He went to His own first. For that was always His plan: to restore the House of Israel unto Himself and to keep the covenant He had made unto them.

And yet it is because they did not at first receive Him, that the grace of God could be extended to us Gentiles:

John 11:11-13 ESV
He came to his own, and his own people did not receive him. But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.

Likewise, when the Good News we share today is not received in the places God leads us to, we need not fret and be discouraged. For, when one door closes, another always opens.

And even then, that place we have obediently left behind, has been surrendered into the hands of our mighty Savior. It’s not the end of the story for those we have given into His hands. Nor is it for us.

Just look at this beautiful Promise given to the Jewish people. That shut door upon their hardening hearts was never God turning His back! They may have stumbled, but held safe in the Promise, they could never “fall”, for their weakness and stumbling was always known by God and purposed to open the door to us Gentiles. An open door that would make His own jealous and draw them back home also:

Romans 11:11 ESV
I say then, they did not stumble so as to fall, did they? May it never be! But by their transgression salvation has come to the Gentiles, to make them jealous.

Yes, God’s love is steadfast and sure. Nothing, absolutely nothing can separate us from the love that is in Christ Jesus. I know it to be true. I only stand here preserved in the breath of God because my God could not forsake the Promise – His Son – in me. Every time I have stumbled, He has caught me in His grace.

Now, as I look back on the seven years since He brought this lost sheep home upon His shoulders, I see all the places God led me into and back out of with new eyes. I now no longer see them as my failings or proof that I don’t belong to Jesus.

I see them as tangible evidence of God’s sovereign completion. I see God purposely opening and shutting each door to teach me so much about who He is. And I see Him redeeming my past.

When I was little, I chose to see the closing door to His Word speaking through me, as His closing door to me and to those I loved, who He had called me to intercede for. And that decision to clothe myself in the whispers of the enemy had me pack my bags and leave my God, believing He had left me.

But more than twenty years later the Word I had spoken in obedience as a little girl, reaped the fruit of repentance for which it was sent. Not because I remained faithful but because of God’s faithfulness to us all. And right when that Word was received, my eyes were opened, as my Good Shepherd picked me up out of my thorn bush to carry me home.

Now, I can see that every place I poured out my heart in – His heart in me – He was ALWAYS present. For, I now recognize Him in the faces He set before me, in my own face, in our interactions with each other and even in our breaking apart.

For, He was (and still is) the:

  – living bread and living water in our hunger and thirst
  – the peace in our storm
  – the faith in our faithlessness
  – the mercy in our rebellion
  – the compassion in our pain
  – the surrender in our clinging
  – the wholeness in our brokenness

Now, I know that I will see Jesus fully unveiled in each one of us, when He returns. “Let us hold resolutely to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.” (Hebrews 10:23, The Berean Study Bible).

And because of all these closed doors, I now know that my God is about to take His Word places it would have otherwise never gone. For, I do not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of my God (Matthew 4:4).

Five years ago, He woke me up to read the story of Him feeding the five thousand and that very morning my then little three year old said: “Mama, Jesus is hungry for the bread and the fish.” She affirmed what God had spoken to me.

There were 12 baskets left over on that day Jesus fed five thousand with the lunch the little boy gave Him. 12 baskets filled with bread and fish. Jesus told me: “Anna, don’t you see? I am already with the fish. My broken Body is already lying right next to the fish.” And those 12 baskets are the 12 tribes of Israel.

Did you know my father-in-law’s name means “exalted Father” and my husband’s name means “behold a Son” and my name means “grace”. Each of us carry names given to important Jewish men and women. Even in that I see God speaking of His Promise of restoration and redemption.

This is the tenth installment of Anna Smit’s personal testimony to the love and mercy of Jesus. These installments of her testimony are God’s answer to all of us who have walked a path of trauma and heartache, believing our God has abandoned us. For He has never ever forsaken us and He wants us to know it, and to see the fingerprints of the Cross – and His unending love for us – all over our lives. For the first installment see: Love Never Ends

7 thoughts on “The Alpha and Omega

  1. Bettie G May 10, 2021 / 3:54 pm

    Oh, Amen! HE is so faithful, even if we are faithless. May I cling more fully to His faithful promises that He has spoken. He will bring each one to pass. And what joy will fill our hearts when all is restored as we stand whole and complete before Him. I am waiting for that day, along with you. So thankful for your precious prayers and love, dear Anna. Blessings and hugs across the ocean today.

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    • Anna Smit May 10, 2021 / 10:20 pm

      So thankful for you too, Bettie. May God bring you such sweet refreshment after these busy but beautiful days of fellowship. Blessings and love to you too xoxo


  2. Maryleigh Bucher May 11, 2021 / 1:58 am

    This is beautiful – There’s a lost lamb I love – and your story is such beautiful insight. God told me a long time ago – when this lamb was five, that he would come to Christ in his own time. He affirmed it through dreams, over and over. Your story so reminds me of his. You write: “It’s not the end of the story for those we have given into His hands.” – because sometimes it is God’s design for another to bring them to Christ. Much Shalom Anna! ~ Maryleigh

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    • Anna Smit May 11, 2021 / 2:25 am

      Oh Maryleigh, isn’t God so beautiful in how He prepares us? I was a lost lamb for about 20 years. No one brought me home but Jesus, in His perfect timing. His peace just fell on me and He opened my eyes, when I wasn’t looking for Him. He showed me that He wasn’t who I thought He was all those years. He is so full of compassion and mercy for us all.

      He always knew my every weakness and how He would use it for good. There’s so much I could tell you about His fingerprints all over my journey and even the insight and peace He gave my parents. His plans and purposes often turn ours on their head.

      May God continue to encourage and affirm His purposes for the little lost lamb He is interceding for through you.


  3. Jennifer Arimborgo May 11, 2021 / 3:33 am

    This Scripture means so much to me. And that is amazingly wonderful how He confirmed His word to you through your little daughter! So sacred and special!


    • Anna Smit May 11, 2021 / 3:38 am

      He speaks through my husband in similar ways and my husband doesn’t believe in Jesus. Even there He keeps affirming His Word to me: 1 Corinthians 7:14 (ESV)
      For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy.

      His Word to us is so precious, so steadfast and sure.

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      • Jennifer Arimborgo May 12, 2021 / 2:59 am

        Oh wow, yes!! What a precious promise! And that’s just amazing that God speaks through him too. Truly, NOTHING is impossible for Him!


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