Part 4: Chapter 1 – Day 5: Design

Welcome to Day 5 of Part 5‘s Chapter 1 of Arise and Shine. Today, Anna is bringing forward the fifth free will offering of goatskin (no outward attraction).

Is God currently calling you, like me, to something, where all you can see is the lack of human rapport you have? What if our inability to outwardly attract others to Him, is precisely God’s design?

Put yourself in Moses’ shoes, knowing all we do today about the traumatic impact of being separated from your birth mother at the young age he was. “Studies have shown that PTSD actually does affect the functions of the brains in multiple ways. The three areas of the brain that are impacted the most are the amygdala, hippocampus, and prefrontal cortex. These areas all play a part in regulating emotions and responding to fear.” (Source: https://highlandspringsclinic.org/blog/can-emotional-trauma-cause-brain-damage/). Likewise, trauma has been directly linked to various chronic, physical illnesses. I wouldn’t be surprised, for example, if the heart trouble I am currently being treated for, is directly linked to the trauma I have walked through in the past.

And yet, it is precisely when traumatized Moses is living in the desert, after having fled in the wake of his impulsive and sinful actions (no doubt directly connected to his inability to regulate his emotions) that God seeks Moses out and calls him for His purposes. Moses had sought revenge for his people, killing a man who he had watched cruelly beat his own people, and then he was forced to flee for his own life.

11 One day, when Moses had grown up, he went out to his people and looked on their burdens, and he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew, one of his people.12 He looked this way and that, and seeing no one, he struck down the Egyptian and hid him in the sand. 13 When he went out the next day, behold, two Hebrews were struggling together. And he said to the man in the wrong, “Why do you strike your companion?” 14 He answered, “Who made you a prince and a judge over us? Do you mean to kill me as you killed the Egyptian?” Then Moses was afraid, and thought, “Surely the thing is known.” 15 When Pharaoh heard of it, he sought to kill Moses. But Moses fled from Pharaoh and stayed in the land of Midian. And he sat down by a well.

Exodus 2:11-15 (ESV)

At perhaps the lowest point in his life, when he definitely didn’t feel confident in his (Prodigal) reputation, his ability or his rapport with his people, God called him. It is from this place of weakness and knowing his inability to outwardly attract and lead his people, that God calls and builds Moses up to become a hero of faith.

So the people believed; and when they heard that the Lord was concerned about the Israelites and that He had looked [with compassion] on their suffering, then they bowed their heads and worshiped [the Lord].
EXODUS 4: 31 AMP

I believe that as Jochebed laid Moses in that basket she lovingly wove to protect him and keep him warm, God was already preparing Moses for the calling upon his life. As Moses’ mother placed her trust in the sword of life, as the sword of death threatened to kill her child, God already saw how He would use the trauma of this separation (pruning) to strip Moses of his confidence in his own ability and the rapport of man. And isn’t it when we hit rock-bottom, being stripped of all our confidence in our own ability and man’s rapport, that we become as clay in the Potter’s hands, trusting His intentions and design?

Thus says the Lord,
    the Holy One of Israel, and the one who formed him:
“Ask me of things to come;
    will you command me concerning my children and the work of my hands?

Isaiah 45:11 (ESV)

Do you see how God always takes what the enemy meant for evil and turns it into good?

Recently, my Dad discovered, as he did research for his soon-to-be-published book on heroes of the resistance during World War II, that there was a common thread in many of their life stories. Yes, they were all believers, but there was something else that connected them. What was that? Childhood trauma. What if trauma is actually the burial ground for pride and the birthing ground for confidence in God?

Father, today, we bring before You Your calling upon our lives. We confess that all we can see is our lack of human rapport and ability. But we thank You for stripping our confidence in our own reputation, our own ability and our own rapport with people.

We praise You for Your Son in us. We praise You for Your holy Word to us and join You now in declaring that the plans and purposes You have for us shall come to pass because not one Word of Yours ever returns void.

Thank You that it is not by might, nor by power but only by Your Spirit that Your work can be done in and through us. Thank You that our past impulsive and sinful reactions do not define our today or our tomorrow, only You do!

Thank You for showing Moses and King David in their own impulsive and sinful reactions that You are not a God who condemns us in our sin, but that You are a compassionate and righteous judge, who turns what the enemy meant for evil into good. Thank You for using trauma to strip our confidence in ourselves and to grow our confidence and trust in You: in Your grace and Your ability to perform miracles in and through us. Thank You that when we are afraid, we too can put our trust in You, casting all our cares upon You, so that we too might become bold warriors of faith and grace.

In Jesus’ precious Name, Amen.

“Lord, keep me close to Your heart,” she said in her daily prayer, “so that I see things as it were more and more from Your point of view.” . . . “Child, it is not as much what happens, but how we take it that is important. God is watching to see whether we allow the problems to defeat us, or whether we will go through them in His strength, being made stronger for the next problem and ultimately for the final end battle.”

p.85 & 109, The Five Silent Years of Corrie ten Boom, Pamela Rosewell Moore

Is God currently calling you, like me, to something, where all you can see is the lack of human rapport you have? What if our inability to outwardly attract others to Him, is precisely God’s design?

9 “Woe to him who strives with him who formed him,
    a pot among earthen pots!
Does the clay say to him who forms it, ‘What are you making?’
    or ‘Your work has no handles’?
10 Woe to him who says to a father, ‘What are you begetting?’
    or to a woman, ‘With what are you in labor?’” 11 Thus says the Lord,
    the Holy One of Israel, and the one who formed him:
“Ask me of things to come;
    will you command me concerning my children and the work of my hands?
12 I made the earth
    and created man on it;
it was my hands that stretched out the heavens,
    and I commanded all their host.
13 I have stirred him up in righteousness,
    and I will make all his ways level;
he shall build my city
    and set my exiles free,
not for price or reward,”
    says the Lord of hosts.

Isaiah 45: 9-13 (ESV)

2 thoughts on “Part 4: Chapter 1 – Day 5: Design

  1. Bettie G August 30, 2021 / 9:20 pm

    Thank you for these precious words of encouragement, to be bold warriors in Christ alone. How beautiful to hear and join along with you in your recorded prayer today. 🙏 ♥️

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    • Anna Smit August 30, 2021 / 9:28 pm

      It was such a gift to write: taking a post I had written long ago and editing it with the new sight God is giving me. He is just so so faithful to His Word, taking us from glory to glory.

      I learnt today that the Word for basket comes from a Word that means “to sow” – isn’t that beautiful? God keeps taking me back to the feeding of the 5,000 and those 12 baskets of leftovers and then what He said to the disciples about the leaven, as He asked them if they had forgotten the baskets of leftovers from that miracle and the other one. I just know He has more to open my heart to. Oh may my ears, eyes and heart be opened to receive Him.

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